because I'm f-ing tired of waiting till my "here's what I've been doing the last year" post's done

[inteligrrl]

I memorized E.A. Poe's Israfel ( http://www.poedecoder.com/Qrisse/works/israfel.html )on the bus yesterday. I love bus time. it fucking rocks.

anyhow, here's the juxt of my last year. Went to Arkansas. Met Rachel (lj username moravis), who rocks. My Erin , aka lunarennui visited me (yay!). played slash life. my grandmother sucks. Saw old friends. Was utterly depressed. left.

Back in NM around christmas. *heart* my harem. *heart* my fucked up sisters. left.

Moved to San Diego. lived with friend for 3 months. got crappy assed retail job that pays too shitty for me to get another apt. living with other friends and feeling like a shit about it. had my wallet stollen, am having ordeal getting new photo id. computer broke. Also, found great church. love SD. love smallish children. love family I'm staying with. am informing SD friend who may or may not read this to stay the fuck off my lj as I may or may not rant about him. *heart* sd, *hates* my life.

In other news. my family's fucked. my sister's run off. my mother's in tears & poor baby Audrey's the only one for her to vent on. my heart aches and while I want to go back and make it better for them it's probably good for me not to be there.

life sucks.

on the otherhand the weather's great!

plus, have gotten new bank card and can now blissfully ignore lack of funds and go see spiderman2

this is my life. more interesting posts to follow.

any questions or clarifications requested will be answered . promise.

*huggles* you all.

Comments

[lunarennui.livejournal.com]

*hearts you madly*

i really need to visit san diego soon.

[inteligrrl.livejournal.com]

*hearts back* cross your fingers for me to get a bit more settled and it's a plan.

[cabbitlover.livejournal.com]

Nellsie! I've been missing you soooo much. I finally realized to what extent when I was eating a pint of ice cream with Dad watching Finding Nemo. I've been dieing to hang out with Jess, but as soon as I heard what happened I decided to avoid your ex-home like a plague. I've been thinking more and more going up to see you, but sadly to say my car does run on gas, so until my flying carpet arrives the chances are very slim. I'm still very jealous about the whole Rocky Horror Picture Show thing. Well post soon!
Love with all my heart-tia

*massive huggles!*

[inteligrrl.livejournal.com]

*squeals* Tia!!!!!!!!!!!!!

miss you, miss you, miss you! Miss you and your dad soooooo much! Once I'm more settled you'll have to come visit. I'll show you all arround. (& off to the pervs at Rocky.)

Anyhow, avoiding my house is probably the best idea right now. My mother's having some people come in to exorcise it because she found some slightly twisted drawings of Jessica's. No, I mean it, she is litteraly having it exorcised. (p.s. while she's there you should meet my Aunt Mary, she's a trip.) Dad's gotten rid of the girls computers, the tv and only a panicd call saved my old cd's from being thrown out with theirs. The twins are going to be under house arrest pretty much as soon as they get back. My poor sisters.

Plus she's having our old pastor in AR counsil them. *loves mother, but knows she's psycho*

Also, Alexis is refusing to have any personal responsibility for moving out and has told mom that she's being rebellious and doing everything she's ever been taught not to because of 1) mom for homeschooling her(thus sending my mother into a crying fit that's lasted for about a month. Like she hasn't worked and sacrificed herself to death enough to at least deserve to have these things tactfully avoided.) and 2) because mom 'allowed' Alexis to be friends with Anna who was a 'bad influence'. Like she didn't have a mind of her own or any ability to say no.

Little cow.

I think it's great that she's moved out, but she needs to quit trying to guilt trip my mother and laying blame. If she doesn't grow up and say "It's my choice and I don't care if you think it's wrong." instead of blaming everyone else for her choices I'm really going to want to strangle her. *grumbles*

Not that you needed to know all that, but I'll deffinitely say its best to avoid the house unless you feel like giving my sisters a bit of comfort.

*love & huggles*

from THE DAD..

[(Anonymous)]

Hey Nells. Its Ray. Boy have we missed you. Please send to nicto123@neworleans.com. I wish we could get a meaningful E-mailing going.I've so much to tell you and not wanting to post for all to see *wink wink*. There has been many changes happening lately. I realy hope to hear from you. *snuggs,huggs,and much loves*

Re: from THE DAD..

[inteligrrl.livejournal.com]

Hey,
I tried to email you but I got a return to sender, anyhow, here's the text of my message:

grrr.... usually I use jlynn@signalpeak.net and only on a rare occasion use jlynn@zianet.com , but that's not seeming to work at the moment, so I thought I'd drop a line via zianet. Anyhow, *hugs!*

I've missed you and tia sooooooo much!

I've got to head to bed, but I wanted to send this to you before I forgot.

Much love,
Janell