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inteligrrl) wrote2003-04-09 10:34 pm
inteligrrl) wrote2003-04-09 10:34 pm
"All my hopes and dreams, ruined!" - Anne of Green Gables (semi paraphrased)
God, could my life suck any more?
Well, plan A for moving to San Diego is definitely out.
Plan B is unlikely to work out as I can't seem to get ahold of the lady I'm trying to stay with for a few months.
Also, I was wanting to go to San Diego to see my best friend graduate whether the moving there plan worked out or not. She's so important to me and I fucking promised. Everything was all fine when I checked fares a week and a half ago. What happens? I insist to my mother that despite how unwise she feels the venture is that I really want to go, receive disapproval vibes all night, get online and see that the affordable fares of a week and a half ago have vanished leaving in their place ones at triple the cost.
So, unless there's an absolute miracle I have to tell my best friend that I'll have to miss this when it was very important to her that I be there.
Also, as it appears working in SD for the summer won't work out I'll be heading to Arkansas with my grandparents to work. With no internet connection.
Arkansas, in the summer. My life so sucks.
Then, I'll be forced to return to New Mexico for the next year's school.
All I'm left wondering is why is it all my good plans fall to pieces at the seams? Am I cursed? Did I do something in a past life that dooms me to being stuck in situations and places I hate?
I just want to go to San Diego, work there, go to school there and never ever come back for anything besides holidays. I want that so bad, mostly because I think I could be so very happy there even with the hard work it would require. No more mom, no more NM, no more misery. Just friends, freedom and a life of my own.
Can't things work out for once?
Well, plan A for moving to San Diego is definitely out.
Plan B is unlikely to work out as I can't seem to get ahold of the lady I'm trying to stay with for a few months.
Also, I was wanting to go to San Diego to see my best friend graduate whether the moving there plan worked out or not. She's so important to me and I fucking promised. Everything was all fine when I checked fares a week and a half ago. What happens? I insist to my mother that despite how unwise she feels the venture is that I really want to go, receive disapproval vibes all night, get online and see that the affordable fares of a week and a half ago have vanished leaving in their place ones at triple the cost.
So, unless there's an absolute miracle I have to tell my best friend that I'll have to miss this when it was very important to her that I be there.
Also, as it appears working in SD for the summer won't work out I'll be heading to Arkansas with my grandparents to work. With no internet connection.
Arkansas, in the summer. My life so sucks.
Then, I'll be forced to return to New Mexico for the next year's school.
All I'm left wondering is why is it all my good plans fall to pieces at the seams? Am I cursed? Did I do something in a past life that dooms me to being stuck in situations and places I hate?
I just want to go to San Diego, work there, go to school there and never ever come back for anything besides holidays. I want that so bad, mostly because I think I could be so very happy there even with the hard work it would require. No more mom, no more NM, no more misery. Just friends, freedom and a life of my own.
Can't things work out for once?
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no no no no no. this is not acceptable.
wtf is going on?
*weeps*
*hugs*
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so unfair!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*hugs you tight*
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(do you know how hard it is to type this way?? *G*)
*wishing you luck*